It could be the alcohol talking....

Kisko

I hope I make it through 2/2/09 without becoming a complete alcoholic! I can’t tell you how much energy I have put out to assure that your adoption by Nicole and Jesse goes through as it should. It just has to happen! I can’t stand the days. I just come home and mix up a cocktail…or two…or four until I can turn off my head and the anxiety and go to sleep. I make it through Jeopardy...but I don't remember much after that! I'm not a fan of Wheel of Fortune and I need to switch channels before the "Wheel of Fortune" chant comes on! I really hate that part!
When I see you with your true parents I know that this is where you should be and I can’t stand thinking that there are still a few days left before it is confirmed. Someday you will know and appreciate the sacrifice that your birth mother has made for you. I pray that she sticks with her decision. It will be the greatest act of love she can give you. Between that… and the total love and devotion of Nicole and Jesse… you have more than your share of supreme devotion and love!
There was a single woman here in Los Angeles who just gave birth to 8 babies. Rumor has it she has 6 more children at home. Now how can she give all of them the love and devotion that your true parents can give you? People that shouldn't’t have children, get them in multiples. People who should have them can’t conceive. It is crazy. Life is crazy though…and you need to know that up front.
I think if 2/2/09 doesn't go well that you and your true parents should just get on a plane to Italy! I will pack up the house here, put everything in storage, get Maggie over there and the come visit every year! We can do it. 18 years and then everyone can come home! I may have to sell your dad’s bikes…but he’d do it for you.
On 2/3/91 my mother died. It was the worst day of my life. It would be such a blessing of 2/3/09 was the best day... and that your true parents know that it is the first day that you will be theirs forevermore!
I want an “Uncle”…but I want you to stay with Jesse and Nicole more. I’ve made it 57 years without a mate…I can make it the rest of the way. But Jesse and Nicole will not make it without you.
Positive energy little dude!
Love,

Auntie JJ